Unbearable Agony: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.
Still, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.
National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.
But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a